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[abandonware]

I don't need to eat. I'm an android.

[Eating was weird.]

[extirpator]

You should think less about the things you need to do and more about the things you want to do. That matters too.

[ a selfish mantra, he is aware. living for yourself in a world that wants you dead is necessary at times.

and this woman is a good person. he felt that deep within his heart. ]

I'm making soup. Try some, please?

[abandonware]

[She is quiet for a long time, after that. She has never done anything she "wanted" to do. She doesn't even have the capacity for those sorts of desires, she's sure — has never even thought about having wants.

It's selfish.

She doesn't even deserve to be alive, let alone to want anything.]

...I'll try it if you rest. That's the only way I'm agreeing.

[extirpator]

...

[ the prospect of him resting is so futile, he thinks. it doesn't matter if he lives or dies. it doesn't matter if he suffers. when he sleeps, he dreams of the world he's lost. when he sleeps, he sees the face of each and every loved one who has sacrificed their life for his sake, and the afterlife he will never journey to.

he hates sleeping. but if this is what it takes for her to indulge in her humanity— ]

Fine. I promise.

[ another silence. this must be difficult for her. he knows it is. ]

...Thank you.

I'm glad I got to meet you.

[ it must be odd to hear.

but it's a thought he's had one too many times too late. ]

[abandonware]

[She has no idea how to respond to that. She is overwhelmed suddenly, a feeling like grief but not quite. It's nothing she's ever experienced before.

She cannot find the words to tell him what a loathsome creature she is. On her Earth, it was understood. There was no need to defend herself, to say anything. She was a traitor to YoRHa. Deserter. Murderer. Someone who had failed her team when they needed her.

Unseen, she covers her communicator again, looks away. Stares at nothing.]

Proposal: A response is recommended. The individual known as "Nier" is attempting to form a connection. Developing positive rapport among allies in the Circle is advised for A2's continued survival.

[Her head dips, her nails digging grooves into her palms, enough to draw blood. She uncovers the communicator.

Finally, her response comes, quiet and strained:]

Yeah.

...Thanks.

[extirpator]

[ she will never understand the weight of his sins. no one can. she is far better than he is, and he would tell her this if he could. his blade has run through children, through parents, through lovers and through vagrants. for each life he took, another was lost.

he destroyed the world. that knowledge sits in the back of his mind, ready to fester at any given moment.

and yet he always chooses to look forward. selfish until the end. ]

I'll see you soon, A2.

And you too, Pod.

[ she's better than he is.

at the end of the day, he knows well that's why he will endeavor to help her, no matter the cost. ]